Hi.
Hello.
Hi.

So sorry for not posting any post for these months
I've been busy doing things i shouldn't do.
I'm an idiot.
By the way i don't think there's anyone looking forward to my blog.
And im here today,
Is just to pour out as much as i could.

It had been a very hard period for me these few months.
I've tried the feeling of ,
Everything.
I shouldn't do that.
I knew.
But then it just happened and there's no chance for me to apologize.

Dog days.
And It had not been better.
Even now.

It is like you are at the edge of the mountain.
Once you walk a wrong step,
You are dead.
Or maybe you will live,
But being alivr with the hurts the pains you have,
You feel like commiting suiside.
Thats why some people choose to bury they face into the earth forever.
They think it will be okay once they dig out their head out off that dirt.
But when ?
When only they can dig off?
To start to dig out?
They wont know.
I wont know.
And i cant.
Lucky there is people there beside me.

Someone said i had no friends.
Only one.
They are all wrong.
They think that they are the all.
They think that they are everything.
So they thought i have nothing.
But so do not.
I have everything.
I did not lose anything.
Because honestly to me,
They are just friends that can make,
But buddies that are rejected from everyone.
Thay do not know.
Because in their group,
They are all.
But the world is much more bigger than they thought.

I kept quiet.
I must so i do.
I did.

Silence worth a thousand.
I do not know what i feel now,
The heart the feeling does not talk now.
They mustn't talk now.
So i keep silence.

To me,
Everyone is balanced.
Not too good, not too bad,
But if you dont appreciate the luck you have now,
You might lose it one day .
So good luck everyone.



Tzesan. :-)

a brand new adventure for us (:

ask yourself .
what do you actually want .
close your eyes .
ask your heart .

I wish I would be matured .

happened a lot of things these few days.
it'd been hard for me to go through .
I'm not even sure whether I've go through or not .

I've keep repeating it's not my fault .
but damn it ,
who cares ?
I do .
I give a damn on every actions ,
every words,
every look,
everything .
that's why it came out like this .

I JUST WANNA BE MATURED.
in doing things,
thinking things,
speaking things.

I wouldn't cry, shout, scream , go mad for anyone who doesn't deserves.
and to those who deserves,
they won't let you be.
that's what it is.
i wouldn't, i mustn't and i won't.

last words,
it's time for us .
to be a bit more matured.
maybe not you,
but i'm in.



tzesanlovess .

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