Monday, October 24, 2011

Hi.
Hello.
Hi.

So sorry for not posting any post for these months
I've been busy doing things i shouldn't do.
I'm an idiot.
By the way i don't think there's anyone looking forward to my blog.
And im here today,
Is just to pour out as much as i could.

It had been a very hard period for me these few months.
I've tried the feeling of ,
Everything.
I shouldn't do that.
I knew.
But then it just happened and there's no chance for me to apologize.

Dog days.
And It had not been better.
Even now.

It is like you are at the edge of the mountain.
Once you walk a wrong step,
You are dead.
Or maybe you will live,
But being alivr with the hurts the pains you have,
You feel like commiting suiside.
Thats why some people choose to bury they face into the earth forever.
They think it will be okay once they dig out their head out off that dirt.
But when ?
When only they can dig off?
To start to dig out?
They wont know.
I wont know.
And i cant.
Lucky there is people there beside me.

Someone said i had no friends.
Only one.
They are all wrong.
They think that they are the all.
They think that they are everything.
So they thought i have nothing.
But so do not.
I have everything.
I did not lose anything.
Because honestly to me,
They are just friends that can make,
But buddies that are rejected from everyone.
Thay do not know.
Because in their group,
They are all.
But the world is much more bigger than they thought.

I kept quiet.
I must so i do.
I did.

Silence worth a thousand.
I do not know what i feel now,
The heart the feeling does not talk now.
They mustn't talk now.
So i keep silence.

To me,
Everyone is balanced.
Not too good, not too bad,
But if you dont appreciate the luck you have now,
You might lose it one day .
So good luck everyone.



Tzesan. :-)

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

a brand new adventure for us (:




ask yourself .
what do you actually want .
close your eyes .
ask your heart .

I wish I would be matured .

happened a lot of things these few days.
it'd been hard for me to go through .
I'm not even sure whether I've go through or not .

I've keep repeating it's not my fault .
but damn it ,
who cares ?
I do .
I give a damn on every actions ,
every words,
every look,
everything .
that's why it came out like this .

I JUST WANNA BE MATURED.
in doing things,
thinking things,
speaking things.

I wouldn't cry, shout, scream , go mad for anyone who doesn't deserves.
and to those who deserves,
they won't let you be.
that's what it is.
i wouldn't, i mustn't and i won't.

last words,
it's time for us .
to be a bit more matured.
maybe not you,
but i'm in.



tzesanlovess .

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Saturday, July 30, 2011

sad, sad ):

gratefully, by tzesan.
married


just coupling you know.
don't be so obsessed by this topic.
fcking stress-nia.
 am i a playgirl?

haha.
yea i am,
when it isn't true love.
when ONLY it isn't true love.

so see,
actually i'm not a playgirl
treating true loves.
:D (Y)

now i only hope time doesn't flies too fast.
or just jump past Wednesday please.
meeting with my mom?
fuck up.

what my mom will do
what she'll feel
what if she's sad
what if what if.
why damn so idiotic
she's so kind but why being her daughter,
should make her feel depressed.

i hate myself so much by hurting her.
she's th one i love th most in this world.
sad case one.


what to do )):
what can i do
i can't do it
issssh




tzesan,
sads/  ;(

Friday, July 29, 2011

ohdear, oh dear.

HI ;D
my blog is alive once again.
WOOHOO.
so sry guys like for three months for not updating anything.
i didn't want so cax i just fck cant use da comp.

and gratefully this freedom has came back and i'm now full with time to go online yeaah
so i came and updated :D

maybe there's no more visitors you know :/
its kinda sad.
but then,
but then why the visitors number is always increasing?
hahahahha <3 <3
 THANKS GUY MY GOD I LOVE IT


before i type this i was thinking of not typing.
since its dead,
LET IT BE.
like what mother Teressa had say,
just let it be.
but then since I've ntg else more interesting to do except eating and sleeping.

okay. so i got so fck lots of discipline cases nowadays.
like fcuk, fcuk.
so nowadays,
coupling is also a fault.
-.-
and will get scolding and get to stand outside the discipline room for still dunno hw many days cax pn.loh doent want to tell and still
fcuk i need to get my mom to see her.
SAD-NIA.
haih,

sad one.
even making friends is also a fault.
what the heck.
okay so i mustn't pass by the toilet even if it rains and i have no umbrella.
at least not with a guy if u r girl since law didn't mention anything about LESBIANS AND GAYS.
and if you're one,
cons.
cax you can do anything fck thing you like,
and you won't get caught.
EVEN EVEN if you get caught,
you won't get any punishments.
see.
SO DMN UNFAIR.

how i hope i'm a les.

chewruibo,
your card is still with me :PP
don't ever think i'm your kakak kays help you keep -.-
want then take don't want then don't take arh i tell you.
I HIT YOU ARH.
fast fast come and redeem i'm ain't a shopping center dude.
teehee <33


lovessss,
tzesansbaaack

Sunday, May 22, 2011

HEY! YOU!YES! YOOOOOOOUU ♥

ALOOOOOOHAAA\
' elllllo!!! 'not alive anymore.
;D aaa.
feeeeeling just right.
ummmmmmm.\
missmissmissmisssss.

so lotsandlotsandlotsandlotsandlots of thingss happened.
some okay some not.
: \
which one to say?
better not say any.
AHA.
okay.
its val's bday.
thats all.
no WAIT.
WAIT THERE.
why in the earth i just keep pressing this
\
why???!
i need to backspace everytime. -.- //-.-

haha back back back back.
i think of something to say dyy.
seeee?
actually i'm just posting this to make my blog a bit ,,
temporary alive.
cax i'm in my mom's office today.
she took me here since there's training
and and and since i can't go online in my home with my com,
//but still i got to survive with her iphone aha//
okay i told you the bad things when i cant go online with a com at the last post right. (;
and and and and i can go online in her office here.
HERE.,
where i am now.
ahaaaa :DD
okay keep coming up to my blog kays. //winkses/
 i will always find a yay out,
out here to keep this blog alive and also you guys ALIVE!
:DD
i know you missed the hyper me for a very longlong time.
ISIIIIIIIIT ;DD
AHA :D
so you see you see.
imma gonna come back SOON.
oh poorthing.
my facebook isn't active now.
thinking ways and ways and ways on
How To Make Your Facebook Pagee Active.
ooooooow.
i hate thunders. 
DDD;


okay this post is about MEEEEE COMING BACK/
to stay tuned,
and to know other more faaaaaabulous things,
please check out the latest.
;))


and yes and yes,
YES!YOU!YOUUUU!
imissssyou.
:PP\
 ♥

  tzesanlovesss.
;)

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Omggggg?
Long time no blog. Nope.
IMMA NOT GOING TO MAKETHISBLOGDEAD
;PP
seeeee.
Kinda stage here cause one day, all of us were out.
And it was raining dogs, cats, chickens, fishes, blaa @
and guessss wad.
No one switch off the internet thinggie.
So KAAAAAABOOOOOM.
It just went koooookooo.
Aaaarh.
Not able to go online with my laap.
I was surviving with this iPhone of my mom this month.
Maybe for my entire life before I get to buy the wifi thingie myself.
Because UUUUUUUNNNNNNNNfortunately,
dad didnt want to fix it.
HWELL?
Seeee.
I'm not able to do a LOoooot of things.
Unable to change my facebook profile pic,
update my blog, /awww poor thing/
lots more.


Okaay. I now needa use this function,
which very very VERY irritating and confusing,
to blog.
Just to blog.
So this will be a veryveryvery not
-quality certificated-
post.
I can't post ANY photos.
D;

was blogging this to make you all to keeeeeep coming on to my blog.
Although it might be dead.
NOPE.
Not dead.
So keel coming kays.
And don't be worry of anything.
I will post one day and celebrate at the city if I get to go online one day.
Oooooops. BUEKKK.
Ahaha.
Lots to tell lots to say.
So stay tuned.
Imma gonna tune you ooooooon ;DD

Tzesanlovesssyou. ;))

Saturday, April 16, 2011

GD&TOP - HIGH HIGH MV



I'm so HIGH! :DD

to get hurt and to hurt others.





your smile you smile.
WHY DID YOU LAUGHED.
you make me feel like dying,
because i'm thinking of you just because you smiled! or laughed/
hell every time i think of it,
I SMILE TOO.
and will turn extra sad when i remember and somehow when i took a deeper thought and realize that actually you all are just making fun of me,
know that i love you;
ACTING AND TRY TO CONVINCE MYSELF FOR NOT TO.
being so cheap of falling in you.
YOU ARE DAMN PERFECT.
`everything.
-,-

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
it doesn't really matters if she hadn't tell me what SHE thinks what YOU feel.
because i won't figure THAT out,
THAT -your-feel- that i think it's so true
with this short brain of MINE.
and making me fall for you once AGAIN.
damn it.
IS THIS LIFE GOD.
like everything came all together,
making me so busy,
but sometimes some moments in my life could be so boring.
not now obviously/
hell sometimes will be thinking of LIFE LIKE THIS,
to be so called interesting and colorful or AWESOME.
and now,
i just hope some didn't happened and some happened.
LIKE HAPPILY?
 there will not be a EVER AFTER in my life i hate it.
HATE IT!
hate this life.

GOD I'VE BEEN NAGGING AND TELLING GRANDMA STORIES!
what kind of person i've changed to--
bloody ass hell.
come back,
life.
i don't wanna changed it.
let me make a little bit more memories before i leave.
):



okay.
so i just went for a movie at s*park with my brothers and mom including two others /
cousin and my bigbro's girlfriend.
without my dad can say.
he feels tired after a whole day work i think.
:/





this.


yea.
not bad;
the best part is the front part when it first started with two Malay guys talking to each other.
their con.
FUNNY ADUUII.
x)
haha.
and then went for the steak nearby
quite a famous place;my bigbro said that/
and ordered the same food everytime i go for western food.
BLACK PEPPER CHICKEN CHOP (Y)
and 
ICE LEMON TEEEA.
the black pepper was so hot.
sizzled on my tongue.
can't describe but to me all good and tasty food are the same.
ehh.
to be exact all food to be ,
MOST OF IT,
are delicious.
haha.
:DD
but the lemon tea was damned big.
the waiter was like
`SMALL OR BIG??
and i said
`small
and she asked again
`SMALL OR BIG??
and i said
`BIG.


hell? seriously dunno what to choice and what i'm thinking.
she was like





SMALL OR BIG?!



maybe i'm thinking too much.
haha.
SUE YOU A LIKE THIS IF!
:PP


it came out this big.



;OO
i didn't finish it.
://
i asked mommy whether that u can DABAO my lemon tea back home since there's still a lot left.
i think i might be lucky because she said NO.
or else i won't be finishing it,
i just asked it OUT OF MANNERS,
and i don't wanna waste plastic bags.
SAVE THE EARTH.
oh yea craps.
:PP
giving myself excuses.
HAHA!



so mommy said she and my cousin;
the girl cousin not this cousin who came with us for the movie and the steak;
//HEY HE ORDERED PRAWN AND STEAK AND IT LOOKS DELICIOUS BUT I DIDN'T DARE TO ASK FOR A BIT.//
off topic.
so THEY planned[
MOMMY said,
a NICE DAY OUT WITH US TOMORROW.
-family day-

they told me one of their plans,
GOING FOR DURIANS.
OHHHYEAAA.
awesome.
:DD
i hope i enjoy my tomorrow and it will be the best day ever since now.
and since i had a bad month.
:/
god bless and i'll be happy from now on!
((:


TBC/

w/love
tzesan :D

Friday, April 15, 2011

answer me with your heart.

my sun sets when you're not around.
(c)tzesan.



what's this feeling's about/
it's so normal to be in love with a guy.
but i'm so in trouble now.
i can't rescue myself!
being in love,
not in love,
in love,
not in love,
and now in love again,
with the same dude.
to me,
he's PERFECT.
sometimes.
not when i don't like him anymore. //
HTF!!
can't match him.
not even an angle.
trying to tell myself that don't think about things that are impossible.
BUT IT JUST CAN'T CLEAR#



boyfriends comes and leaves,
but good-friends comes and lives.
might know that i'm talking about you.
i dun wanna be without you guys?
i dunno what i am,
why i am here.
without you guys,
HOPEless.
no more colors?
really don't know what to do now.
D:
aaah.
so stupid.
hearing all those friends and teachers and my mom and other ppl what they think of my think,
and what should i do now,
they just call me to leave you guys.
i don't know how.
why everything can't end with a happy ending?
i don't wanna leave you guys.
no matter who's right who's wrong.
please don't make me do the wrong decision?
i don't which one is the right one.
i just wanna do what my heart tells me to.
but sometimes it's confused in every way.
i don't know how.
i still really love you guys.
although i often try to deny now.
telling that i hate you guys?
the more feelings i have to you guys.
--
at least an answer before everything's too late please.



this week's
too stressed up.
sometimes i hope to get a peaceful life.
but sometimes you guys are coloring my life with these.
i just hope i can handle all these,
and be with you guys,
you,
forever and ever and ever.
not apart. //


tzeeeehsan. 
((:
w/love.

Chris Medina - What Are Words

awww.

Sunday, April 10, 2011

okay. let's see. :DD

HI! :D
i know maybe there'll be someone ELSE than you guys (YOU these guys, C: ) will come and visit my blog.
like hi?
:DD
ntmy. ((;

yea i've post my blog url on my wall photo in fb.
advertising my blog for free.
HAHA!
:DD
i've deleted quite lot of post which is cannot been seen.
:O
gonna tell that my english is very broken`
i know i know`
choose to use english for my blog to improve.
like someone said.
awwww thanks for TAMM-ing me.


so guys please pay your next visit if you like it.
haha. (;
although i know i don't look good.
HEY.
don't racist okay.
haha BUEK.
okay la hope you all enjoy.
oh my i feel so sorry.
i didn't pay ANY attention to my blog and will only post some craps on it.
only for sometimes.
the other time i use to play anything else,
who call i'm LAZY.
:DD
regretssssss.
nvm.
hope you gueeys like it.
(:


w/love
tzeeeeehsan©.

Auburn - Perfect two (w/ lyrics)


we're the perfect two. (:

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

AAAA. i don't wanna let go! don't let go off me ):

okay.
somehow i think it's okay to shout in my own blog and maybe someone will come and ask me what happened.
I DON'T HAVE THE MOOD!
i dunno wth i'm thinking.
):
like hel?
yes do let go, no do not.
EVERYTHING CAME TOO FAST!
can't face o can't face.
D:
EEEEEEEEEEE.
why make me think so much?
trying to cut off!
EEEESH/.
am i trying to be cute?
LOL.
hell.
ftw.
i dunno what am i thinking!
i'm afraid sometimes,
DUUUUH.
don't 利用 me :(
i'm not in love so not i'm not.
let go girl.
i dun wanna disturb you.
bye dear.
:PP




AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAa.
sometimes shouting could really be a very good solution.
to everything.
i know i dunno what i'm talking now.
hell.
what did i did!?
pretty pretty girl.
:(
i think you can't guess wth i'm talking now.
gosh.





Yong YinYin XinHaw Pei Ting
not 拿得起,放不下,
is 还没要拿起。还不懂。而且现在不要拿了。
:)





somehow, there's still something that we had take up and can't let go off.
i know english cacat so how`
:P
sense me. :D
and adui i got tricked by SOCKS.
ll' take some pics and i think you all will get tricked like i've got! :PP
ceeeeeeyou.


tzesan. :)
has grown a bit matured:D

Monday, April 4, 2011

secretly in love with a guy i shouldn't be.

shy! shookching so dare :DD

and here comes the mighty meeeee :D current profilepic. GOLIKEIT! :D

*blush*
(: HOTTALICIOUSE. 
teeeeeheee. :E

threeeee prettytears. 

women beiduibei PAIZHAO. xDD


TIGHTSSSS! :DD

so pretty. :))

haha. close take. (:

omgggg sooo cuteee :B
awwww why are you so pretty my dear.
sheeee's so hot! :O :DD








EVERYTHING ENDS WITH A 
happy ending.:D
WHEN we're with our deadly best pals aka dears. <33















to be in love with the one we aren't supposed to be in love with?
seriously hurts.
but only in few ways.
learnt something from jordan aka daddeeeh,
拿得起,放得下。
):
maybe we're not suitable enough.
now i seriously know what's this fucking feelings you're suffering before.
:D
maybe it's cool somehow.
ily.


eeeeeh although you gave me lots of problems. idiotic 若即若离。you really make me think a lot dumb!
haha.


                                                                                                                                                                       








so dears when my house and ad an homepa.
:D
it went kinda funny.
EE?
so we took few photos to get it on fb profile pic.
:D
i got one before them.
haas professional I am.
(Y)
got it edited but it doesn't seems fave.
:P
kinda loose my skills after that case happens.
not used to this 600d. although it screen turns and flips out.
i'm more use to my blackie.
D:
nvm. just wanting to say IMISSYOU! (:
i still got pics that i've saved in my com with you. :D

okay back topic.
eeeh. changing topic is one of my best skills. :D
baaaack.
they came and we've fun.
aaaah wasn't planing to tell you all what happened.
imma not writing essay.
:P
come next time if you wanna know. :D
love you guys duuuh. ):
lol damn moody.
:P



byyyyi.
tzeeeeehsan.
 ♥



Friday, April 1, 2011

let's just stop everything. we should end this very early before.

awwwww.daddy. (:



so.
I AM SO SORRY!
i know i'm sooo late.
i've been lazzzy these days.
:P
went ponteng twice.
just don't feel like studying.
went the first time on wednesday,
which is damn funny and quite successful can say. x)
and the most dumb for yesterday.
epic fail!
:D
but its quite a memory there i'll have.
end up wasting my time in ttc.
met the police, O.O
okay stop giving informations!
:D
this cheong ianson tiensing still say i noob.
-.-
i think i'm cool for real.
arent noob. :D


                                                                                                                                                                   

ohkay here's something soo irritating.
Between Vaneese Wong and You
Tze San April 1 at 11:27pm
hi. :) do i know you? :O
Vaneese Wong April 1 at 11:28pm Report
Umm...
You remember Todayy Recess, you wass talking to Valerie.
& I was standing there too ! :D
Tze San April 1 at 11:30pm
haha okay. :/ hw you know my name?
Vaneese Wong April 1 at 11:31pm Report
Saw your NameTag !
Atfirst, I thought you were TZEDONN's Sister ! LOL
Tze San April 1 at 11:33pm
EESH! GOD. hw on earth. i hatethisnamesomuch! D:
you know tzedonn? hecks.
Vaneese Wong April 1 at 11:34pm Report
LOL ? XP
Yeahh ! XD
Tze San April 1 at 11:37pm
i dunno you. :/
and too bad you know him.
Vaneese Wong April 1 at 11:38pm Report
XD
Whyy too badd ? :O
Tze San April 1 at 11:45pm
wait. umm do you know val's house phone? :)
Vaneese Wong April 1 at 11:46pm Report
Nahh !
I got her HP onlyy .. X)
Tze San April 1 at 11:47pm
ou. nvm then. thanks :)
i said too bad cax i hate him from in to out so sorry. none of my friends know him or like him. :P
Vaneese Wong April 1 at 11:48pm Report
LOL ?
WHYY ? :)
Tze San April 1 at 11:50pm
let's stop. should we? :)
//ehehehe i know my blog post le very cacat hope you all dont mind :DD//


ohkay i know i'm quite bad to treat a form 1 like this.
:P
say why.
she's jealous.
because i'm talking to her boyfriend?
HEL.
oh come on girl. I'M FOURTEEN!
somehow i'm a bit proud that i'm fourteen. :/
and guess wad.
the guy is a year smaller than me which is at the same age as her.
HOW CAN?
being jealous of ME talking to a GUY WHICH IS ONLY THIRTEEN?
the post that i'm really freak out of?
ERRGH.
down there copy pasted by me. :P
why should i ever flirt someone when i don't even get into interest with them?
why would everybody thinks that way?!
GOD.
i hate it.
stoooop it no matter which one.
><

wait let just back to the main thing i was actually going to say.
SHE JUST OFFICIALLY SAID 
whatshethinksaboutmyname.
TZEDONN 's SIS?
HELL NO.
let's just end this NOW. :PP




here's the post that i'm really freak out of. :P


Chatting with another girl ?
Don'tdisturbyoularrh.
Byees :)
11 hours ago ·  ·  · See Friendship

    • Soh Mui lol... sai lou u yai yai gek lao vaneese! vaneese! juz beat him.. 不用给面子他.. haha XD
      11 hours ago · 

    • Vaneese Wong ‎:(
      11 hours ago · 

    • Soh Mui why sad sad? sai lou! faster explain or next time saw u sure beat u!
      11 hours ago · 

    • ZiQian Ho she jealous lahh
      11 hours ago ·  ·  1 person

    • Soh Mui why jealous? u sure yai yai go kao lui lar?
      11 hours ago · 

    • ZiQian Ho no larhh, talking about qm things onlyy.
      11 hours ago · 

    • Soh Mui ooh.. also kao lui! dint choi vaneese den is yai yai..... oh oh di da yo.. u so naughty! go 斟茶认错啦~~~
      11 hours ago · 

    • Tze San wlao! D:
      11 hours ago · 

    • ZiQian Ho O_O
      11 hours ago · 

    • Soh Mui dear/?
      11 hours ago · 

    • Tze San dun little bit things so stress up la! how can o we two? i form two dy la. think so much! AAAAAAAAAR.
      11 hours ago ·  ·  1 person

    • Vaneese Wong Tze San : XD
      11 hours ago · 

    • Tze San very funny meh? zz.
      11 hours ago · 

    • Soh Mui oh.. vaneese 吃干醋? X)
      11 hours ago · 

    • Tze San wlao can we just stop all these things? so stupid! :(
      11 hours ago · 




      • and p/s, she deleted some comments which she also thinks is stupid.
        good for her.
        -.-
        at least she knows it's stupid. :PP


        tzesan.