we've all changed.all matured, no more that.

we are one big family.hands tight, hearts attached.
our teenage dream.

for researches these days.
we've all really changed.
qm's are siting in the big table and was keeping quiet that few moments and waii started telling alvin things.

a topic about people changing started so naturally. :P
Rainey the most.
:)
i should be happy,
i think.
but was thinking who made him changed so much. : (
don't tell me is really her.,
how on earth
can i count.
lots of people says that. :/
i think the topic just can't stop till that day when shookchings says yes he do.
:D
which most of us,
including boys,
thinks that it won't happen.
probably.
unless he grows more taller.
not saying that he's short,
because he's taller than me.
oh goSH. :/
but just the tall girl.
taller than me for like,
two heads?
HEL.
heads in CHINESE please.
not english.
it sounds so weird.
:O
but rainey really changed a lot.
hope he stays.
he's so matured now omg.
how i hope i am too.
haha they said i've changed too.
but dunno which part of me is.
i m still cute.
:D
aren't I?
*looks down skin*
awww i know i've become much darker.
stop COMMENTING!
x comments dears :D

i was so freak out when everyone just can't stop saying i'm darked that KOONLAM.
for gods sake?
KOONLAM??
darker?
:O
im so freeeaking out.
make me a bit natural.
a bit     whiter?    
awwww.
D:
more whiter.
:(



haha so ponteng today. how a not good girl i've been to.
:P
so will update more with the ponteng stuff.
we HAVED.- past tense they said. x)
funnedd.
:)
okay.
gotta go sleep now.
mssd for the last day.
D:
how i hope i can duty also on Friday.
but kimhean didn't write D:
nvms.
go on next year.
see what happens till then,
:D

w/ love,

tzeeeehsan. :)

don't look at me please. i'm afraid of you.

don't look at me please.
serious!
i'm really afraid.
doesn't mean that i love you or i hate you,
just don't look straight at me.
letting me to feel your heart once more.
i'm really afraid to fall in love for the third time of the same person again.
that's why i rejected my own heart by telling i dun wanna see you forever again.
how much i know that the chance between the two of us,
that's why i'm doing this.
forgive me please.
if i can choose,
i really wanna choose to love you again once more.
but there's no more chance for you nor me.
i'm afraid so.
please don't let me feel your heart.
opps.
i mean,
don't let me feel my heart.
since I've rejected it.
let me be alone single for this moment.
for these moment with you here.
i have forgotten.
don't let me think about it again.

don't tell me that he treats me more special than the others.
don't tell me things about him treating me.
i just can't stop the feeling of hating him.
and i can feel that the strong feelings him to me too.
the same feelings i have to him.
and i think i'm sure
this strong feeling, is hate.

love someone the more,
once get hurt,
will hate him more.
it's the same strong feelings.
the more you like,
the more you hate.
and you've hurt me in and out.
playing me like i'm a doll.
and now i'm so sure that i hate you.
no matter what you do.
i really hate you.
how can you do that.
wishing that the strong feelings won't change again because i'm so sure how much i hate you now.
so close your eyes dear.
let me slap you.
this is the only thing you are left in this world can do.
don't make me hate you more!
:D


awww yea.
don't look at me anymore.
i'll treat the looks before is all me perasaning.
you know wad,
i kinda feel dao that feeling yours to her.
:P
a lot more better than me.
and by that i know what is my level now,
and i'll let go!
before i take it up and hugggg it tight!
:)

let me say for the last last time.

i love you.

♥

ily.

Sugar Sugar - The Archies

:) honey. oh sugar sugar.

you've got me wanting you.

it's been a long time since ily.

I've reach out the first step and you reach out yours too. keeping it close with mine. but how will you only know,what i was thinking about to do.
to love you.
I wanna be secure. I wanna be the one to be cared and love.
I want you to love me more than I love you.
let's go.
25/3/11.
ily.
to the world to the end to the sky,
only me and you.
hands attached,
heartbeats the same.
dear,
you smile,
I smile.
see now,
i've let go,
letting you die.
you know i love you more than the others.
and i hate you more than too.
:P
GO DIE! :D

                                                                                   





so hey guys! :D
hahahhahahahahahahhahahaha.
actually i bought the
canon600d.
instead of the two i thought of.
: /
i was about to buy 550,
like i've said,
but then the salesman suggest the new launched-
600d.
:D the screen can turn 360` de. x)
( Y )
so i'm gonna bring it to school tomorrow and take pics with the others sweethearts. x)
peiting yongyin and yinxin :DD
then we will change to the same profile pic in facebook.
( RAWRSS.)
i wonder can the camera fit. : |
:DD
so they are going to mssd. xDD
MAYBE.
seriously.
it's so awesome.
:D
so maybe we can all go makan together if they get the place
-- the hou bu'
:D so they can ponteng and they can play there without attending ANY of the competes.
;)
how cute.
so gawd pleasssseee.
let them go and make things successfully flowing right well like i think. : /
not like those doggy days.
ARRRRR.
it's so irritating.
floating,
nope. running in my mind.
shhhooo?
eeeeeeeeeeeesh.
D:
oh gossssssh.


i hate gosssipss!
xP
arrrgh
makes my head bbbbbburstss.
it's so hard to get things clear-
when you seriously don't like a person. a guy who is much more BIGger,
in ANYways, EVERYways,
keeping quiet might be the best solution for me now.
and just ignore or deny with a firm sound when someone says.
this is my RULE.
keep this flowing.
SSSSSIGHH.

so i can't say it out LOUD in the internet,
it's too scary.
D:
only peiting knows what actually i feel on things that happened to me these DOGGY DAYS.
:(
it's quiet bad to say it out.
i really don't know what to do now except of my rules for so much things.
i just wish all the good ones happens and bad ones just go off and don't happen.
:)
jiayous.
to everyone,
peiting, yongyin,
for the mssd,
<3
and myself,
for facing so much things and others.
and by not forgetting.
i love you guys ting yin & xin.
jiayou!

gmbateehs.

tzesan.

decisions.

If one day,

and 

appears in front of you.

and you can only choose one.

I'll choose,







:D :D
 although I've made the same decision the last time.

x)

ooooooyeah.
so MOMMY <33 WILL BRING ME AND BUY AGAIN------






since it's been stole//













                                                                                            


tomorrow to Pavilion :DD  


                                                                                           




I'll gonna make this citeeeeeeeeh dance. x)
umm.
gonna celebrate
--everything--
to this happy ending 
tomorrow <3
;))
anything,
everything.
so i've said.
I'M GONNA MAKE THIS CITY ROCK!
xD
gonna be in newspaper--
the 14 year old girl who make the city rocks in a day.
xD
ohhhhkays.
don't think too much.


oooha.
;))

so back to topic``````

canon 550d and nikon 3100d.
I'm so sad D:
that i've choosen canon.
and i'm going to choose canon again.
:x
i can actually grab one nikon back since i've already have one canon before/
and i can share lens or either,
use/
sean behs lens for free.
whatttttt?!

i know it's stupid for ending up choosing canon.
but think of the
benefits//
eeeheeem.
it's reasonable okay?
i know the price.
let me say it out loud since we can all find it in internet.




canon 550d.
2188 for only the body/normal lens//
3113 for?
i dunno.
i got it 3113 i think for no additional and i got that cam in one of the canon camera shops in Malaysia.
maybe different lens.
:PP
didn't pay much attention in the price thingie,
THAT TIME.
*****
:PP




Nikon d3100.
1798 for only body//
2198 with lens 18-55mm.
:)
done research! :DD
i paid attention for this,
x)




                                                                            




umm.
so compare this.
i always pay ++ attention at the sentence?
i don't know whatthel it is.
say it out and you guys will know.
:)


canon,
 delighting you always. 
:)
nice one.


nikon.
at the heart of the image.




ooooooo.
i didn't mean too put that italic purposely at the nikon's,
just it's actually like this only--
:PP


so?
;)




                                 




so at the,
NOW,
i choose canon 550 la.
:P
although it may be stupid.
but i think the position canon is compared with nikon,
canon suits me more as in like ways such as;;
photo detectors?
sensor size?
effective pixels.
pixel density,

but Nikon is better in such ways;;
in the white balance,
unlimited JPEG,
and the weight
SIGHS.
and also the date la.
i mean the date it's born.
:PP
sorreeeh/
x)

see.
i dunno because sean beh and a guy and a girl **forgot who le**
and also my brother and his girlfriend suggest me to buy Nikon.
since i got this canon already.
who cares.
D:
i dunno.
:PP

so done with this decision thingie.
i think most of you all will scroll down straight,
since i've said so much crappsss.
YAWN.
BIG YAWWWN.
i'm really VERY sleepy.
not expressions or anything.
i've been so sleepy since afternoon.
when i was with all bunch of friends,
visiting the shelter home.

I'LL POST THAT
in the next post,, :)
wait for me.
:D

I' like everything, anything.

i don't mind.:D

i'm just choosing the best to suit me.

maybe i'll find one Nikon and grab it one day.

x)

wait for me! :D

w/ love,

decisions are hard to make :xx

tzeeeeeeehsan. :)

I hope you'll live well.

I'll really miss you.

I hope you'll be happy with the new master.

I hope they treat you well.

I don't curse.

but i was angry.

how can they do that?

we was born and teach since small,

that we should earn our things we want by our hardships.

not stealing.

but there's no use now.

i really miss you.

hope you'll be fine always and they'll treat you well.

i hope that guy can put my cam in the police station in Germany.

yea.

my mom and my cousin lost my cam,

my canon 550d dslr.

♥

at first i thought my mom really gave it to someone and i was damn angry.
like what I've told Peiting and Yongyin.
but then i know the truth,
actually someone steal it.
how can they do that..
people bought it with their own money and they just steal like this.
i don't wanna curse anyone.
I'm really,
very sad.
not only my cam has been stolen,
everything which is valuable has been.
I feel sad.
I know they won't treat my cam well.
they'll sell it to someone or anything else to get money,
don't tell me they gave it to their daughter.
may I use the word,
THEIR,
i don't know what sex they are.
but i just feel sad.
hope you'll be well in any ways.
my camera.
and i hope no more people will get things like this anymore.
it's really sad.
and they'll change one day and don't steal things anymore.
be a good citizen.
maybe god will forgive you if you changed.
be kind.
550d,
my last pic I've taken with it,
I hope you all like it.
scroll up to see,
i was wondering will it catch the flow of the water.
and i got it.
i really like it.
i feel so sorry,
i hope camera you can really live well and the new owner will treat you well.

w/love camera,

tzesan. 

i turn my head right round right round.

actually dear,in the deep side,i still love you incredibly.

OMG. i hate it.
go out! shooooooo! go out!
why stay at home :((
isssssh.
my brother didn't go out today and now he 's fighting the line with me.
-.-#
i was watching high school musical just now and he came knock' knock my door and i was thinking who the hell is it.
so i shouted.
:''WHO THE HELL IS ITTTTTT!?''
and he go,
:''open the door.''
and i went,
O,O
and looked at my comp's screen.
i wasn't allowed to watch ANY shows when he's using the internet.
when ''EVERYONE'' (p/s: INVERTED COMAS!!) is using THE internet.
which means,
EVERYONE= me and him.
everyone's out usually.
except me,
who is sadly dumped by them,
in home,
alone.
umm. not Alone.
my servant's here.
but now,
may i use the word,
UNFORTUNATELY,
my gain-tic big size muscular tall hair cut durian BROTHER,
is in.
not leaving me Alone,
only leaving me, TWOlone,
which is worse.
-.-
i needa shut all my movie things up, bla bla bla.
end show!
erggggh.
sry for grumbling.
:PP
so now my comp' is SOOOOOO lagg,
results from;;
the fighting line of INTERNET,,
i can't even reach facebook.
only blogger.
which i think is sometimes called,
well, FINE.
since i didn't post anything yesterday.
sorry! :D
 so let's start the topic of today's
:DD


                                                                                                                                                                        


wait.
let me say something,
the connection now is quite NOT bad..
hope i didn't say anything wrong and stays like this.
i HOPE.


                                                                                                                                                                       




GREEEEEEAT NEWS!
MMMMMMMMMMOMMMY WILL BE BACCCCK TODAYYYY!!!!!!!! <3
FINALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLY! 
awwwwwwww.
<3333
how i miss her. :D
awwwwwww.
hope my brother after can bring me to fetch her at the airport!!! :DD
then i can see her more earlier.
yaaay!
hope my little little dream comes true!!
p/s:
i don't have the guts to ask my brother :PP
thats why.
another thing.
i FAILED.
EPIC FAILED.
i didn't ewwwwen tried.
*making the www mouth :EE*
i failed fighting for going out.
that's why i'm still here typing.
:x
epic fail.
:'((
nvm.maybe next time :D
i only hope that i can go OUT this HOUSE and fetch my MOMMY <33
and maybe next time,
i can go out with my friends. :))
psss.hope there's transport!!
:DD



                                                                                                                                                                       




so here.
scroll up may you,
:DD
i got ANOTHER

~MASTERPIECEEEE~

the
youyouyouoyouoyouoyouoyouoyou one? and with the heart inside one? on toooooop that one, ? :D
proud of it. x)

i can improve!

i did it all by myself.:P

but i didn't put any heart in it.

i TRIED I TRIED I TRIED I TRIED.

i CAN'T.

another FAIL.

D:

cax i don't know where to put the heart since i don't like anyone.

nvm.

but hope you all like it la.

actually i took it with the original Olympus Digital Cam,

not with my Dslr.

because my poor thing cam,

pssss.did i told you all that?

has went traveling,

makan makan angin,

when even the MASTER,

meeee/

can't go.

LUCKY LA!

so actually my mom brought it to Germany.

but i will see it tonight!

:DD

psss.hope it is back without an inch scratch or get hit  or anything.

100% unputtttacle down heart for my mom and th/ clumsy cousin who followed my mom.

: \

nvm.

everything will come out,

SOON. tonight.

; /

so  i did it all myself,

and from preventing anyone stealing it,

sorry for using that word,  :PP

i put my name down there,

and added a

(c)

which means,

copyrighted.

in my way.

:D

so hope you all like it!

i edited somewhere.

manually. 

not auto.

i auto-ed at the first and then i changed it.

to be honest.

so it's manual.

sincce i changed it all by myself. x)

ok.

enjoy!

lots more pics to be waited,

taadaa.

be amazeeed.

;))

w/ love,

tzeeeeehsan.

forget about it.we're impossible.

i still remember our memories. i've tried so hard to forget about it before. but then you came in my to life again, making me to remember all the feelings again  .what do you actually want? i'm really tired. i don't have the mood to play with you now. what's the situation between two of us now? what should i answer, if someone ask me do we know each other?  what should i do, to forget all these things again? what do you really want from me, doing so much things, making me to be in love with you, making me feel that i'm the most happy girl in the world, making me feel like i finally can give my heart out to a guy, but then you break my heart there and then. you leave me without giving a sound. leaving me , standing there, watching your shadow, until it disappear, and the end, finding myself crying silently, choking, trying to vomit out all my love for you. you've win. i admit, you've win. and i have lost, and i don't feel regret, to be lost to the one i love.and i admit, i love you. so what? don't come and tell me that you love me. and sorry that i didn't take it. because i know you will broke it again. no matter how you promised. because i've experience it. like you have said.

___________________________________________________________________________________________________________

opps. :D

so that's the love story between the two of them, and that's one of the chapter,

i mean,

one page that i've copied down.

i think?

i heard someone said before that memories can be washed, and can be forget,
if a person can put it down.
maybe that girl really can't put down the feelings. : \
:P
ok!
topic end,
:E


so see the green dinosaur up there?
the one i said i got from the fair in school :D
the bought-with-green-chicken one?
:D
so the green chicken is officially my brothers one. : /
he likes it so i gave it to him.:P
lalalalalala,
anything.
:D
me memang da fang


 so this dinosaur is STILL mine,
:P
but unfortunately its lost. : |
like my phone chargers.
hmph!
p/s: my brother doesn't want to lend me his. :x
nvm.
:PP

__________________________

the reason now i'm posting this two pic because i'm so satisfied of this two

~MASTERPIECES~

:D

i've took it with the skills i've learnt from the magazine,

and i've edited it with the heart and the feeling of the brightness and contrastive and the colour and the temperature and lots more,

that these pics should be and should have,

: \

although it's kinda weird and i've stop editing although i think it's still not good enough. : \

nvm.

but i've use my heart at least :DD

:E

so about the results i've got,

the results of the outing?

sorry,

still in progressing :PP

wait for some more masterpieces to be done!

:D

taaas! :D

w/love, 

tzeeeeeeeehsan.

:))

HEY! :D

HEY! :D
so yea.changed blog template :P
like it?
I LOVE IT.
;)
hope you like it too la :DD
royal-royalty flower-flowery type style :D

so,
scroll up if you need to and look at the chicken.
yea. the green one.
not the weird one i said.
-,-
credits;;
ME!
unbelievable!
i just took that myself and edited it and it's called a
~ MASTERPIECE ~

you know where i got it from? got it from my schoool.


got fair nia.
got one green dinosour pun :D
:BB


                                                                                                                                                                     



umm.
ben lai needa go to school today de.
QM got meeting for sukan tara.
:P
but didn't go.
no transport.
too bad.
:(
wanted to go.
I'M SO BORED!
i have nothing to do!
wanna plan outing.
so i'm gonna go out to sunway on thursday.
not confirm yet.
having lots of problems now. : \
hate it.
so what you want me to do in the house?
play the com?
go online?
i will die one day.
D:
I WANNA GO OUT!
WHEREVER!
I JUST WANNA FUC*ING GO OUT OF THIS BIG HOUSE!
suffocated .

so i didn't go to the meeting this morning and everything seems so fun : /
again.
:'(
what the hell?
why couldn't i just step out of this house.


reason one-
i have no transport.
nope. i have. but they don't want to.
and it's reason two.
the they don't want to?
that's the whole reason one two three four five.
idiot.

i haven even asked my father.
:x
i don't dare to.
he's the last step.
and i'm figuring whether should i step this step out now.

ahh gosh.
hope i could settle all this things and can successfully go out on Thursday.
which means..
i have three days left.
three days on to go.
:D
D:
that stands for three more boring days to go too.
maybe only three days.
or more.
if i don't get up and do all my best to get the chance to go.
hmph!
i don't care!
gonna go.
jiayou!
action.,

taaa,

w/love,

tzeeeehsan. :]

SAVE YOURSELF! CHEER! :)

Japan.

sorry that i didn't post anything about the disaster yesterday.

nope.no fun.

Japan.cheer all guys.

i dunno what i can do for you all now,

i dunno,i dun even know how to pray.

so can you,

just my small little favor,

let me use my heart,

to feel,

to let anything to feel,

what my heart feels.

hope it helps you guys.

i really felt sorry.

i know.

no.

i dun know.

the world's so big,

why would they be you all?

just take it,

as what they've said.

maybe,

this will be the last time you all face these,

so cheer up if you can.

dun cry.

make your cheeks dry.

i love you guys.

you guys are so brave.

i love you all.

be brave,

i know its hard,

i know you all wouldn't know this small little post from me,

but my heart.

the whole world's heart.

i'm sure,

you all could feel it.

brave,

is a five letter word,

where sometimes is hard to be done.

to be brave enough to get brave.

awww.

you all ARE SO BRAVE!

to be a living thing in this world,

i feel so proud that,

we living things, human,

could be so brave.

just mark this disaster as a history.

pack up all your things,

stand up,

face the sun,

smile to it no matter whether there's tears in it,

i'll get through all this.

i love myself.

i'm brave.

thanks god,

i'm alive.

guys.

i know its quite scary when the HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE tzeeeeeeeehsan

is
serious

:P

but guys i really felt so.

so may this post stay sad.

pray for those.

those victims.

those innocent.

close your eyes.

no matter you know me or not.

no matter what religion are you.

no matter you saw how many PRAYS you are called to,

just closed your eyes up.

feel your heart.

feel it with your heart.

your mind,your heart,your soul.

feel it.

bless them.

peace. v

dying.

me feel so not good.
i don't feel well.
-- in case someone ______ comments my english,
zz.
i just dun have the _____ mood to make my english,
or i mean,
type the proper english now.
i dun care.
just stop making stupid comments about my english.
i love it and it doesn't have any matter with you.
oh crap.
i think i really hate him.
zz
gosh back to the ''improper'' english style and also back to the topic.



_________________________________________________________________



i feel so dizzy.
i'm having a bigbig cold right now.
:(
i'm crying right now.
how i wish my mommy is here right now.
how i wish there's no exams tomorrow.
how i wish i was feeling ok right now.
how i wish,
but i can't manage it.
my mom's not here,
my dad will make everything even worse,
my two brothers is out boxing and i won't tell them my condition however.
i have the exams tomorrow and it's all so difficult.
there's things for me to read and memorize but i can't even look at anything.
i don't even know what the subject is teaching about.

all this all this make me cry.
i feel like fainting.
i feel like continue crying and don't do anything.
siting at the corner,
crying.
everything won't bother me.
how i hope.
but i need to face it,
god says.
although i'm not a catholic nor christian.
my mom says i need to face it too.

oh crap.
i've cried so hard. when xin called me one minute before.
i really fell so sick.
i dunno how to face all this,
my tears.
i can't force it to stop rolling down my cheek?
how can i cheer..
i feel so sad and so scared,
i really dunno what to do.
:'(
god, bless me.
bless me please.
i feel like fainting until exam's over.
gosh.
please.
let me overcome all this things.
bless me.

truth

ihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyouihateyngtzedonnouihateyou

find the word
idiot.

eesh. 一切都很顺利直到现在你又多管闲事,好心你,死开拉/ 讨厌到顶点/ 没事找事做/ 让人反感/ 照理说你以前不是这样的/ 还是我看错了/
原来你是那么讨人/恶心/
我很后悔.

我还爱你呢.

its all dead.how can you do all this..why should all of us change? i hate when my tears are rolling. i hate it.
you've hurt us so badly. the innocent ones. who started it, should end it by itself.
i don't know how to face this,
without you, i have nothing.
without this , i have nothing. not even a thing.
i don't want to lost any of it.
how can you..
how can you be like this.
hurting isn't fun.
hurting someone badly isn't fun too.
hurting more than a person badly isn't fun at all.
hurting more than a best friend,
you'll lost every pinch of us.
it isn't fun neither.
we don't want to lost you too.

what actually you want us to do..
what can we do..
what you want actually?
how i hope,
i can scream out
what i feel.
yea.
true.
maybe you don't even know how badly you've hurt us.
i think you don't even know that you've hurt us.

why am i.
suffering all this.
why am us.
why innocent ones,
are always the getting hurt ones..

what can we do.
if four hearts attached,
breaks into two,
and one of the two,
breaks?
lucky,
i still have a three.

-- w/love.yongyin --
we know what we two feels.
we know how sad we're with this thing.
we know what we feels.
thanks for being at my side
how happy when i know you're at my side.
we smile together,
we cry together.
we feel what we feels.
i think,
our hearts are really attached.
i really thank
when i realize
i have you.


what i hope,
all this things will go back to normal.

after the rain,
our sun shines the brightest.
in the accompany of the sun,
the rainbow appears.
♥
i hope,
our heart will be as bright as the sun,
attached as smooth as the rainbow,
and in it,
memories as coloful as the rainbow we have,
and darkness
has gone off,
like the rain have been.

sads.
tzesan.

jump high! feel high! x)

lalala.
let's jump like mad :D
so yea.
i was so excited when i was checking at the life traffic.
i saw one outside ppl come le.
xD
(i know my english very cacat >__<) memang! its jiaying! ♥ but was like straight away WTH. my post! so lan. all simply simply write de. walao D: cham! all love love love de. wlao. i thought no one will come at see my blog de wor. D: den makk simply simply write lo. all also write rubbish also write. me regret liao. if i know earlier i won't la T 3 T cry si. nvm la. i know one day jiaying will come and check my blog out. so gonna make her to see this! hmph! > 3< style="text-align: right;">w/love,
tzeeehsan.

five'teen.i swear.

i don't need time any more.
i think i'm back.
yea.
i feel that funny feel.
of the..
suddenly got mood suddenly no mood thing..
haha.
ok JUST NOW i have no mood.
NOW,
I HAVE IT!
o yea.

me: p.s. let me tell you one secret. i love you.
you: :EE don't so wei la.
(heartbreaking)
me: tell me yours then. :P
you: come nearer!
p.s. i hope i'm not but i'm incredibly in love with you too.
i've meet you. you've meet me too. our hearts meet with each others. <3

yea.
so touched.
:)
ok so the most EPIC THING!
I'VE SPLASH RAINEY WHOLE FACE WATER!
:D
ok today was happy.
i admit.
and his guitar playing was nice.
ok.
and his smile..
is cute.
LOL.
not his,
another one.
:P
sighs.

awww ♥ ---
Darius Tan! can i hug you? ♥
*thinking* no.
D: why not? i thought you love me. yea i love you but i don't wanna hug you.
......why? D;
cax i'm dutying?
awww ♥ . x)
-- ehem.we're just playing with each other --

x)
yea.
that's what we two usually do to each other .
i love him, he love me too.
but just playing la.

lols.
i hope i'm not in love again.
LOL.
cheh.
ya la ya la.
LOL.
me still small girl le.
LOL.
i dunno la

so..
hope me can also so happy and cheer tomorrow also la.
still got ttc
zz.
T 3 T dun wan go le.
dunno laaaaaaa.
yeeer.
dunno la.
T 3 T
i think i'm really in love.

♥

i know very hard to figure out la.
but maybe
i really wanna let only one person know only.
:P
sometimes i feel so shy looking at his smile.
wth.
zz
sometimes only la.
dunno le.
everyday fight with him de..
never think of liking him also.
YER.
DUNNO LA.

end liao want sleep le.
;)
taas!

w/love,
tzeeehsan.

Eminem - No Love (Tyler Ward Family Acoustic Piano Cover) - Lil Wayne

postcesses.

act act act.
i dunno wad to do.
i dunno wad to post.
:O
i know.
exams coming la.
and i feel a very funny feel :P
weird.
i just dunno wad to post.
lazy to do anything,
even lazy to find pictures in photobucket to post in this post.
D:
what's wrong with me?
been so long,
i've no more the mood.
no more feelings to anything.
what happened to me?
maybe i'm sad.
i dunno.
maybe i hungry.
i dunno too.
it has been so,
over.
anything.everything.
so.
weird?
my gang of friends?
feel like leaving.
i wanna be alone.
sometimes thinking of that,
make me feel so tired,
i dun even know why.
tired.
for the first time of my life,
i cant come out this circle,
the circle of,
tiredness,
sadness,
emoness.
how long have it been?
i'm supposed to be typing how in earth the first guy who teached me something,
which i feel so.
yea.
no feeling?
i should,
be happy
or something else.
i dunno.
errgh.
maybe i need some time.
so god,
please help me.
i need some love.
i think is the method of love, care , and share.
no more..
the happiness.
nope.
not sad.
just
not more happy.
maybe,
someone said.
i've changed to be a bit girlike,
not more 38,
which is good to everyone.
but some said
i'm not more the me,
i can't even smile,
laugh neither.
sometimes.
since when.
my laugh and smile is so fake?
since when.
i've not more the normal me?
although i'm still normal,
but not more the me.
the,
usual me.
which is hygei,
happy and bla.
i dunno.
i'm so.
lonely.
in the circle,
where people aren't beside me.
i wanna get out of it.
i tried telling my closes friends.
my smile is so fake.
i feel like doing something funny.
i feel like crying.
i dunno.
they will just continue to do their things.
i dunno.
since when,
when the one i love the one i've been so crazy of,
come and tam me,
i also won't have the mood,
and just telling him i dunno,
and even tell him he's making me more fan,
in a sense,
weird.
i dun wan this tzesan.
how much i hope i'll become the usual me back.
i know,
soon.
i hope,
soon.
and i wish,
that everything will be
alright like usual,
soon.

crumpled,
tzesan.