yeah,
sad day again :((
i wanted to cry out but i didn't.
no,
i did cried.
for two times but its like fucking quite and nobody finds out.
maybe yu meng found out.
and maybe chong yao found out too.
or maybe HE found out too.
but they choose to keep quite.
and me too.
dun like to let people know that i'm crying.
makes people feel that i'm very fragile?(oppss thats the word i found in google translate)
or maybe to let them who found out knows that i'm actually very hurt.
nowadays boys are always hurting girls!
not fair!
:((
about NG TZE DONN who OFFICIALLY hurt meeh for about a thousand times and after that can always say something that makes me feel better.
and dunno why,
when i was sad today,
think about ..
ntg
waow imagine huging kok soon.
yeah i hugged kok soon today,
first time hugging a boy,
and this hug makes me feel extremely secure.
so i didn't let go for about two minutes.
and he just hug me back too.
laying in his chest makes me feel so secure,
haha so i closed my eyes.
enjoying the feeling of secure.
after letting go of him he patted my head for about tens times
and he was talking to me.
i didn't hear what he said.
i was thinking about another guy.
how much i hope that he can be kok soon.
this makes me feel even sad.
p.s. knowing kok soon was hygei-ing,
i didn't wanted to bother wad actually had happened after the hug.
and there's no use talking about things happening after that.
the thing i wanted to say is,
i actually hoped that you could be him.
tzesan lovesss.
your hug.
your hug.
