lol to ting,
just jump off this part if you dun wan your
fur,
to stand up.
i know the things I'm thinking now is,
er.
yeah.
i wanna write down :P
i dun care!!
i was smiling in front of you,
acting as i dun know.
actually I'm thinking about you,
because i know you're watching at me,
i wanna prove to you,
actually without you,
i can also be happy.
actually even if you hurt me,
I'll can also be happy.
actually thinking of you,
make me think of these stupid things to do.
no matter that i know that you dun think so.
there's so many girls in this big world,
i know.
who could the hell be me?
but why.
why is it you?
the feeling of been hurt,
uh i dun like it.
i know i hurt you too.
i dunno how to do,
and what to do.
I've done my best to maintain,
at least the friendships between us.
its so short,
but memorable.
we didn't even confessed to each other.
but we know.
no,
we don't know.
we're just guessing.
maybe I'm wrong.
you don't like me.
yeah.
but those things you've done,
i really dunno wad you are thinking about.
and now I'm thinking of you,
even the keyboard has your face on it.
its,
err.
I HATE MYSELF.
even that i know every thing's over.
but i just cant let go.
wth am i.
yeah,
yee.
there's lots of people out there waiting for me to love,
and they'll give me happiness,
why should i just cant let go?
i asked myself.
how i know?
i really cant put down and just wish him happiness.
i dunno why.
why am i so selfish.
i just dun,
i just dun want to.
i'm giving myself stupid hopes.
maybe the feelings between two of us haven end yet?
..
but what can i do right now?
i can only leave to these feelings flow off by itself.
if you dun wan to,
how can i force you right?
yeah.
I'm sad.
i regret.
i really regret.
i shouldn't hurt you.
i know what they mean.
i hurt you more than you hurt me.
i know those words are hurting..
but please dun let go of me..
please.
i know..
its too late.
i really need you.
i need you in my life to make me happy.
you're the only one now that can control my feelings,
you can make me smile,
make me cry,
make me love you,
and make me hate you too.
anything.
i really feel so sad without you day by day,
i realized that
i cant have you missing in my life.
I've used to it.
lol i really dunno what you're thinking,
lol.
i hate guessing.
and i hate,
regretting.
and i dun wan you to just let go so easily.
i know you won't come and see my blog and you'll never know this post,
but i really hope that i can now wish on a shooting star,
a shooting star which can really make my dreams come true.
that you'll NEVER leave me and you didn't let go.
and the happiness,
we can share.
and to the end,
happily ever after.
but the sad one is,
it didn't.
we just ended it now.
